Carla:
It was one of the hardest times in my life. I wasn't sure that I would be fine in my last stage in my college coursework. I was facing a huge heartbreak, one that was caused by someone so special to me . Regardless if I was going to be fine, I started student teaching at an elementary school. I knew student teaching itself would be very challenging and hard work but I had faith that I would be fine especially if I took things day by day.
I remember the first week of school , the week of August 11, 2009; I had an encounter with a psychic, she said that she felt a lot of energy from me. She said that she could tell that I would have a have new developments in a new romance. I said no thanks to a reading and took her card. My goodness!!! I have always wanted to get a reading from a psychic so saying no was super hard! I wondered what would the future hold for me. But, I said no because I thought by saying yes ,I would show that I would not be faithful in trusting God to provide me with a true love. True love was something that I wasn't sure that existed but I felt that if it did it, it would definitely involve God.
It was not too long that I became acquainted with Ruben Lopez, he was a part-time school janitor and full-time Student. His presence was pleasant as he always had a smile on his face. It became apparent that he was interested in me , once he began showing up around campus and "running" into me. Anytime we did talk, it was short because well... I was at school to work.
I was walking to my car and Ruben walked beside me. " What's that on your windshield ?" I quickly took off a white note from my windshield and I opened it. It was letter that said if I would like to go on a date with Ruben. It was quite a cute letter because it required me to check a box for "yes" or "no". I checked yes and I explained that I would have to see when I would be able to go on a date because I was pretty busy working on the weekends too.
Our first date was super great. We engaged in great conversation, I received nice flowers, overall the date was enjoyable. We kept in touch by texting , his interest in me seemed to peak and I was still unsure about him . I really liked lots of things about him but I just was not sure that I wanted to date anyone and (hehe haha) he reminded me of my oldest BROTHER! I was also unsure about dating Ruben because I did not want to be unprofessional so I fiercely told Ruben to leave me alone. I felt I had to tell him to leave me alone , plus I would be work for him to date. Incredibly, God somehow gave him the strength to pursue and deal with my crazy self ( haha ;) ) .
Over the month of September, Ruben proved to be a perfect gentleman and my feelings completely changed when FCW happened on September 26, 2009. I keenly realized that Ruben WAS a perfect guy. He was not just another foul , unchivalrous, stupid male. Ruben was educated, funny, handsome, compassionate, caring, and most importantly, a God loving man. When I though about the things I wanted in a man, I looked at my list (hehe, yes I made a list) , he was 22 out of 23 of things.
I was doing my best to stay focus on school and God , those were the only things I felt that I needed and wanted. I just wanted to finish up my degree and see how a new life would develop. I had been trying to figure out what I wanted to do with my life after graduation for about 6 months already. Some of my plans were to move to NY , join the military, travel around like a careless hippie , or start working and start life in Phoenix. My possible plans were not clear and so I decided to let God control what would happen.
I learned more about Ruben and realized how lucky I would be to have him as a friend and as a boyfriend. In a time that I was going through so much chaos, he came into my life to show me that I could trust and love again. I really was trying my best to distance myself from anything and anyone because I felt that I could not trust or rely on anyone, not even family. I felt that the only thing I could rely on was God. Yes , God is the only one that I really did need and I am so happy to know and have a better relationship with God. I feel even more blessed and special that God sent me Ruben to show me what real love is. I really did not realize how much I needed him until I had him.When I think about being with Ruben , my life seemed to have more purpose . I understood that God sent Ruben to me and so does Ruben. Most importantly, the most beautiful thing in the world is having God in our relationship.
10/18/09
When thinking of my love , I think that I finally found my soulmate. He is everything I want in a man .The time we always share always is joyful and amazing. His compassion, ambition, and intelligence compel me to be better.
I feel empowered to know that I am coming closer to figuring out my purpose in life . He makes me see that I always want a life with God.Because God is love , and love wins.
I want to teach and serve others in God in different ministries. I want to impact the lives of youth by teaching them how they can be great and how learning in academics and learning about life can make you become successful in life. These are things I have always wanted to do but I was never quite sure of or see that the are something I should adamantly focus on.
In figuring this out, I feel like I finally have a sense of direction of where my life is supposed to be like and who am I supposed to share it with.
It feels soo right to be with you.
